Rain from my soul
Cleanses my heart.
Within myself,
The storms are welcomed.
I am the weatherwoman
And the forecast is bleak.
After the weather,
The birds will soar.
I know the winds,
The currents,
The gales.
I know the rain,
The torrents,
The floods.
Tragedy has struck.
But, as always –
Out comes the sun,
The life-star, my
Force.
As with the weather,
Again I will live.
Only now the calm
Will be longer and
The storm short-lived.
23Mar97
The tears come more often now.
The pain – not as much.
The reason?
I am healing.
I am healing –
From a wound not caused by anyone.
From no wound self-inflicted.
The reason?
I am healing.
I am healing –
From my own insanity.
From my own self-doubt.
The wound?
Caused by me.
The tears come to me in joy.
They come to me welcomed.
The reason?
I have healed myself.
23Mar97
In time, happiness
Will come to me.
Time is mine to bide.
I wait for myself
To realize that I
Am the master, I
Decide when I will
Be happy.
Solace is a gift to myself
From the shallow
Depths of my sanity.
I wait for myself
To know that I
Am the master, I
Decided when to dole
Myself the gift.
I am the master of
My soul; of my
Feelings; of me.
I wait for myself
To overcome what
I have forbidden: to
Be the master and
In control.
21Mar97
Because I love you
I will let myself
Be free from you,
Let you be free of me.
Because I love you
I will free myself
From what I’ve caused,
From what you do.
Because I love you
I will let you be
To be free of your conscience,
To allow you life anew.
Because I love you
I wish you love
For someone but me.
Please, love me not.
19Mar97
The sun sets,
The moon rises,
The tides ebb and flow.
You came to me,
I went to you,
Our souls we shared.
Time passes,
Moments linger,
Seasons wait for us.
In nature life grows,
In life time moves,
In time, we change.
Within our time
We found ourselves
We found each other.
As time seeps past
You move closer away
I move further apart.
Without the time
We lost ourselves
Je perdu vous.
18Mar97
After seeing my pain
And the tumult in my heart,
Your change for me was
The only way I knew.
When I shared my pain
And the tumult in my heart,
You changed the way you
Held me, and I knew.
When finally you knew my pain
And the tumult in my heart,
You spoke to me, touched me,
Soothed me differently.
And I knew.
07Mar97
Tired
Emotional Drain
Hateful love
Mindful hate
Helpful mind
To lead me to
Your apathy of
Heart only to
Be hurt by
My own
Insanity
02Mar97
All the better
To not strain emotions.
Reveal your thoughts
To me and I’ll
Understand then move on.
Movement in one
Direction keeps me
From being hurt.
Pain is the result
Of a void in time
Where movement has
Ceased and a
Standstill has taken
Over my mien.
Sanity remains my
Only ally in movement.
Cessation of movement
Creates a stopping point
For my sanity to get
Away from me.
Emotions take over
And leave me
Stranded.
02Dec96
Throughout time
hearts acquire thought.
Always thinking
Continually feeling the thoughts of what
Is to become.
Throughout time
Minds acquire emotions.
Always sensing
Continually mulling over
Emotions of what
May never be.
Throughout time
Emotions acquire differences.
Always changing
Continually leading one
Through what
Will never be.
02Dec96
Two souls dancing closer apart
Met with one timing right
One wrong convinced
Longing to end the notes
And the dance to be done
To answer to the conductor.
When the nocturne is finished
And away are the pieces
To clear the stage
Begins the composition of anew
To combine the metronomes
And correct the timing
To master the staff
And clef the emotion
In finale, to bring the hearts to key.
23Nov96
